It's been almost 8 years now since we lost our first baby to a miscarriage. I was about 3 months pregnant when we were given the news that our baby had died in the womb. I don't know how to describe the feelings I had. I was in tears, heart broken. But at the same time I had a sense of peace that surrounded me. As if I could feel God holding me as a Father would hold their daughter, telling me that it'll be alright. Tears streamed down my face as I quoted the only verse that I could remember, Phil 4:8-9 "Finally, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is of good repute, if there is any excellence and if anything worthy of praise, dwell on these things. The things you have learned and received and heard and seen in me practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you."
Why that verse? Because He knew what I needed to hear. The God of peace, my God, is with me. I wish I could tell you that the next few weeks were easy but I'd be lying. After a series of appointments and doctor's visits we opted to have the baby surgically removed. The healing process began. Not just physically but emotionally. My heart was broken. Only God, who knitted my heart together, could heal my broken heart. A month after, we found out I was pregnant with our Young Padawan. Praise the Lord! Although when he was 7 months old, we underwent the same trial again. Praise God he wrapped us with His incredible peace once more.
Why am I sharing this with you? Why now? Well...I just saw the most incredible video. If you haven’t visited Bring the Rain, this is the time to go and visit her blog. This sister (even though I’ve never met her) has an amazing testimony of faith and hope. Her and her husband recently buried their youngest daughter who was only 2 hours old. They knew that baby Audrey Caroline would not live to see a full day. She recently posted a video for everyone to witness and see their baby (click here to go straight to the post). I wanted to share it with you because you see the hope that she has in God. You see the peace that God bestowed on them! Even though they knew she was going to pass away, they had hope! They had hope because of Christ! It’s amazing!
May you be encouraged as I was.
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Psalm 116: 1-9
I love the LORD, for he heard my voice;
he heard my cry for mercy.
Because he turned his ear to me,
I will call on him as long as I live.
The cords of death entangled me,
the anguish of the grave came upon me;
I was overcome by trouble and sorrow.
Then I called on the name of the LORD :
"O LORD, save me!"
The LORD is gracious and righteous;
our God is full of compassion.
The LORD protects the simplehearted;
when I was in great need, he saved me.
Be at rest once more, O my soul,
for the LORD has been good to you.
For you, O LORD, have delivered my soul from death,
my eyes from tears,
my feet from stumbling,
that I may walk before the LORD
in the land of the living.
4 comments:
Wasn't that such a beautiful video? I watched it when I woke up this morning and just sat there crying. What a testimony and what grace God gave them. Thanks for sharing your story too, it will encourage so many to have hope in Christ. Love ya!
Thanks for sharing Chone. It brings me joy to see you and Al "grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ".
"In the day of prosperity, be happy. In the day of adversity - consider, God made the one as well as the other so that the man does not know what is ahead of him." - Ecc 7:14
I love the lesson in that passage: That God is gracious in granting us adversity because it brings us to do one thing - depend on Him. He knows that is for our good and His glory.
I recently started a blog myself after so many years of avoiding it. http://asinnersthoughts.blogspot.com
Check it out and let me know what you think.
- Euge (and Leilani and Izabella)
Hey Jennie,
Praise God for Angie and her encouraging blog, huh? I wonder if little Audrey Caroline sees how much God is using her short life to glorify God. Love ya too!
Euge!!!!
I'm glad you stopped by. I'll be visting your blog often. I'm going to add it to my blogroll, is that OK?
Praise God for trials! I believe only those who've given their life over to Christ can actually say that with joy! Adversities do bring us closer our Lord. That's why we can praise Him when we go through them. Brian S. said during one Sunday school, "Rejoice when you go through trials because you know that God is working and your growing."
There's a blog that I go to. It's a blog by Molly Piper, daughter-in-law of John Piper (http://the pipers.wordpress.com/). She had a daughter that went to the Lord few days after our son passed away and also went home to the Lord. I'm learning that we all grieve differently when we lose a loved one. But I always remember when John Piper said there's nothing wrong with sorrow when you at the same time are esteeming and acknowledging God- that's actual worship to God. Everything is all for His glory.
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